Leaving Early

Hey kids.

I've been busy with the following:

* Shopping too much. It is my yearly binge and thus far I have purchased five shirts, two pairs of shoes, and one amazingly unnecessary but joy-inducing Hello Kitty tote bag.

*Feeling guilty at work after having received a fairly prestigious work award and becoming The Boss' vehicle for venting about his wedding and having to nod when hearing "And when you come down to the house this summer for the cookout, you'll see my garden!" and not break down and say "But I won't be here in the summer and I swear it's not you it's me!"

* Working too much due to previously mentioned guilt.

* Socializing with Girls - I'm not sure if time is really running out but I have to socialize non-stop just in case it is.

* Consuming tons of theater - within one week's time I saw Rent, the Edward Scissorhands ballet, The Pirates of Penzance, and Curtains.

* Spending tons and tons of money (see above: shopping, theater, meals before theater, movies after theater, etc).

* Fantasizing about and semi-planning a May trip to either Japan or Greece, neither of which will happen due to poor timing and my boyfriend suddenly having a fit of responsible adult behavior.

* Consoling my boyfriend through his first ever experience of rejection.

* Trying to sell the piano.

* Trying to catch up on sleep.

* Enjoying Daylight Savings and the resulting energy! Yes! It's bright out when I leave work! Even when I leave late! I am accomplishing things and am not exhausted! Thank you W, for this and this only.

* Spring cleaning and oh the progress! I moved things from boxes to other boxes, generated space, filled trash bags with clothes and shoes that should no longer belong to me, piled books for the library, consolidated and organized CDs, transferred prints to a fabulous new storage system... bliss!

* Spring projecting and oh the progress! I began the copy-all-digital-videos onto DVD project last weekend, which was an experience of simultaneous torture and ecstasy. It is easy to both demonize and glorify the past, and when confronted with it in video form it is easy to realize that it was neither completely heinous nor completely wonderful. It was better in so many ways - watching the "documentary" that I was trying to do about the "48 Hour Film Project" made me miss things that I don't have anymore. I miss creativity. I miss collaboration. I miss people who actually follow through. I miss karaoke. I miss Halloween. I miss little cousins. I miss the era when I thought everyone and everything was nice. I miss not being jaded. I miss ambition - I found all the footage from the family documentary that never got made, and realized that it was a really good idea and that I was insecure at the time and I should have just done it. I don't miss being insecure and not confident in my ideas.

* Fantasizing about the musical that I will never write.

* Catching up on the sleep lost during the 80 degree apartment era, which actually continued into this week but was more manageable with open windows and fan.

Nothing terribly exciting. This weekend will be more Projects and hopefully the selling of the piano and hopefully a ton of sleep and more importantly a ton of karaoke for NR's Big 3-0 Birthday Extravaganza. I will watch Blood Diamond at home and maybe something at the theater. I swear I am going to finish my book and add it to the library pile. I may even start another! I will finish at least one of the magazines that is piled under my bed. I will relax. I will not spend insane amounts of money for anything not related to NR's birth.

And with that, I'm off for the weekend. I'm leaving early and I am without guilt.

Have nice weekends.

Until Monday...